Honestly, I've lost track of the days.
Today was a difficult day. A day that I felt unmotivated, uninspired,and tired, tired, tired of the same old struggles. Tired of being tired. Tired of waiting.
But I keep pressing. I keep praying. I won't stop until I touch the hem of His garment.
And tonight I heard the voice of my Jesus. It wasn't anything new, really. It was his reassurance.
He loves me.
He has a plan for me--and it is GOOD!
He said that he's preparing me. He said I'm like an unwrapped gift under the christmas tree. Really? A gift? Sometimes I feel like I'm all wrapped up--but not in a good way. Sometimes I feel like I just want to break free. But from what? There's so much inside of me that wants to be free.
The Father says that feeling of not being content where I am is from Him. He doesn't want me settling. He doesn't want me comfortable being less than His best.
I thank you Father. I thought I was losing my mind today. Yes, I am hormonal and I'm sure that was part of the problem, but I thank you that there is more. I'm thankful for my family, for my children, for the opportunity to serve them, but I was made for more than cleaning, cooking and homeschooling. I was made for more.
And if I don't embrace ALL of me, then none of me will be effective.
I'm a better mom, wife, teacher, etc. when I'm walking in my full calling. I know that there is more. I just don't know what that looks like in this season of life. But the Father assures me, that I will have enough time, and energy to do ALL that He's called me to do. I believe I'll have more energy than I have now.
Today was a difficult day. A day that I felt unmotivated, uninspired,and tired, tired, tired of the same old struggles. Tired of being tired. Tired of waiting.
But I keep pressing. I keep praying. I won't stop until I touch the hem of His garment.
And tonight I heard the voice of my Jesus. It wasn't anything new, really. It was his reassurance.
He loves me.
He has a plan for me--and it is GOOD!
He said that he's preparing me. He said I'm like an unwrapped gift under the christmas tree. Really? A gift? Sometimes I feel like I'm all wrapped up--but not in a good way. Sometimes I feel like I just want to break free. But from what? There's so much inside of me that wants to be free.
The Father says that feeling of not being content where I am is from Him. He doesn't want me settling. He doesn't want me comfortable being less than His best.
I thank you Father. I thought I was losing my mind today. Yes, I am hormonal and I'm sure that was part of the problem, but I thank you that there is more. I'm thankful for my family, for my children, for the opportunity to serve them, but I was made for more than cleaning, cooking and homeschooling. I was made for more.
And if I don't embrace ALL of me, then none of me will be effective.
I'm a better mom, wife, teacher, etc. when I'm walking in my full calling. I know that there is more. I just don't know what that looks like in this season of life. But the Father assures me, that I will have enough time, and energy to do ALL that He's called me to do. I believe I'll have more energy than I have now.
I love it when the LORD speaks to us his heart ... his love ... his plans....
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